I wanted to share something that God has reminded me recently. For me, when there is an intense amount of catching up to do for a midterm or papers, I tend to put my whole life on hold. I realize that I need to make up for all the procrastinated and wasted time on my part by cramming the next ___ days. In those ___ days, I must live as a hermit, sacrifice my happiness, social life in order to be a good steward of my studies and try to pull this thing together.
And God showed me how wrong I was. He reminded me that the world still goes on while I am in my hermit mode. He reminded me that while I shift my mentality to just meeting my own needs, people around me are still hurting, people around me still need a friend- and as much as Cal students understand academic exile, God doesn’t. God never gave us an excuse for us be snap at people, be impatient, think only about ourselves, etc. It’s easy to think of how “good” we are when we remember the good things we’ve done. But honestly, the good things we do tend to be when it is convenient for us. I think a lot can be said about how we act when it’s hard to be nice. (cliche, but true)
So for me, this was a reminder to be a good steward of my studies CONSISTENTLY- not just during crunch time. As much as the culture around us is telling us that academics should be our #1 priority, I need to remember that God first called us to be HIS DAUGHTERS. I want to seek God and love Him and love His people, while still finding a way to be a good steward of my studies. Everyone definitely works differently, so I think it’s crucial for me to go to him for discernment in what I need to spend time on, also remembering that it is never through any of my own power that I accomplish anything.
On another note, I wanted to encourage everyone to pursue deeper relationships with the others in our small group! Obviously, it’s super comfortable to just hang out with the people we always hang out with. But honestly, this is such an awesome opportunity for us to mix it up a bit! Talk to people we don’t know that much about! I can definitely say that personally, I would LOVEEE to get to know some of the older women in our small group ;) Even if it is just grabbing a meal together, taking a walk, walking to class together, or COMING TO THE SLEEPOVER THIS FRIDAY :DDDDDD I pray for more unification and deeper bonding in our small group!
I hope that God is reigning in all of our lives!!
<3, Eun Sun